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1.) I can be a big flirt sometimes.
2.) am extremely sensitive..
3.) name's Cipriano Hernandez but would rather be called Dazreiello by all you who don't know me in person :n
4.) into dark humor and fashion (though sometimes I fail at both)
5.) I think this tag thing's is too much work
6.) I like to RP
7.) am straight and single ;3
8.) am nice and intelligent, but alot of the times oblivious and clumsy o-o;
9.) I usually run out of ideas
10.) I LIKE CUTE GIRLS :U!

(wish I had more to say o-o)

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I'll send taggs to them later x,x I'm tired D:

I haven't been around to posting anything at all, nor have I felt like posting anything either. everday I've been miserable, sometimes I have my mind off the whole break up with my ex but I always seem to come right back around to thinking about it all. Over time I guess, the thing is we were for what ever reason becoming unhappy with each other and I think mostly do to our lack of Effective communication. learning from Health classes I've realized we both didn't have such a strong grasp on our control and ability to understand or try to understand. I still actually really love her, and I miss her so much, the kicker is she does too, just when she's with me she's unhappy so That's a problem.

Also the thing that gets me is if we both do love and miss each other why not just give it another go and just get through that veil of sorrow together, just work things through. We really were close to our ultimate goal, but I guess Thats just what hurts the most thinking about after this break up. Although its strange how we both exactly changed, I changed because I though she was changing and she changed because I was changing, one disturbing loop I'll tell you that. If only I saw through that loop I've created, it all would've worked out, She fell in love with me not the me that I was becoming, Thinking" that I was changing for the better, I thought I was only being caring when I really was being quite whiny and hard headed. I've been coming off as annoying to her lately and do to how much I'm trying to be funny to her once again, to be honest Its just kinda hard to be truly as cheerful as I use to be during this time so I try to push anything out of me, and yes often, after I say the things I do, I get embarrassed and call myself a loser, that's kinda funny in a way I guess, eh no its not.

I must say when I tried to communicate with her I guess I never really went about it the right way, I now know a lot of different communicative skills to have been able to get through to her a lot more efficiently. I guess its already too late now though. Even now I'm not all that perfect but now I stray away from really Blaming anyone, I use to blame a lot or turn the issues into my own story which was pathetic. I actually know she might read this eventually, and this is my way of trying to tell her, I'm willing to give it another try and she knows that. I'm just wondering if she would be ever willing to give it another try as well. Also that I'm always there for her no matter what, and That I really hope we could try it again.

I no longer think highly of this new me, I'm aiming for the old me now. The me that she truly loved..

Anyway I do have some art work done just not ready to be published yet. I hope all of you have a good day, those who read this or not.

yeah, I said earlier I might not do anything for a while, well, I might never do anything. I might forget about this place. cuz I'm going to be gone for a while.

I think its over between us.. more close to for sure, This hurts too much, its ove because of one flaw. I couldve fixed it over time.. All I wanted to do was for us to understand eachother. She calls it whinning, and maybe I am, I just need to work on how I express myself. But I wasnt given enough time or she just couldnt tolerate it anymore. I'm so sorry, I never meant for this to happen.. I just wish the good things about me and the good times we had would over weigh That one Flaw.. i dont know.. where did I go so wrong for this to happen, I didnt mean to do anything to her. I only wanted to talk things through. Why?. why did this happen? She only need time to herself and friends, we would talk in the morning but that was almost it, even then we still loved eachother and we fine. Just for a while I was becoming depressed at how little time we had, When she said she needed time everyday to spend with friends I did think she meant the whole day for a while, then when I talked to her about it it just blew up in my face.. Then she told me she wanted "me" time, Which Now I understand and I'm willing to give her that time, just she hasnt really been there for me, there have been times when I feel bad about something and all I got from her was "ok" or "ic" Nothing like the concern she use to have for me, so I just spoke to her about that, and she thought I was still at it about the whole time thing.. I said I left her but knowing that was a bad decision. She doesnt want me back.. and now I think that she never really enjoyed being with me as much as I thought she was.. otherwise it wouldnt be that easy for her to let go would it?.. I dont know what to do anymore, I really am lost without her. She tries to tell me to grow up and to not be such a child, but I wish she'd know that saying those things never help anything either.. I always feel more assaulted, as I just try to make her understand how I feel.. Where did I go so wrong for this to happen..

I meant to change my last Journal entery for quite some time now. Anyway Long story short, she still loved me the most and I was the only thing on her mind through out the intire break up and when she was with that other guy, they broke up after Letting her know what kinda person he really is after we randomly spoke to eachother. Naturally I gave her a second chance, we were both frightened but I think we can manage this time. We are both very happy now actually, we both learned so much from all this and know what to be greatful for in each other, I've always loved her more than anything even when we were seperated I only wanted her to be happy.

I have so much to do tho.. -_-

here's the link to her page again.